before and after

the feeling of spring after winter has to be my favourite thing in the world. suddenly you can breath again, without feeling the chill of ice in your veins. your heart begins pounding under your rib cage, aching to be let loose. everything in you feels filled to the brim, almost overflowing with resonance.
you can shed your coat and hat, let that extra burden leave your skin. it’s a porous, complete, rapturous feeling that i wouldn’t trade for the world.
but there’s only one thing that makes it so blissful. and that’s the part of before.
before this feeling, what existed?
the winter. spring can only come after winter. fullness can only come when you’ve been empty. freedom can only come from being released from the cage.

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